I realized that this is really happening. I felt my heart saddened.
Four years ago, I was a struggling college student who lived alone in a small four-cornered, no window room at a creepy building in Estrada Street. I did not like it there because I felt so isolated. I did not have anyone, no roommates or anything. The least I got was the landlady's gay grandchild. Anyway, I lived there for a year.No friends, no family, nothing. It was the saddest year ever. I remember crying all the the time. I even went to school with my eyes swollen because of crying. It was depression and self-pity for a 16-year old girl from the
province. Good thing, God loves me and he did not let me go crazy. I'm proud I survived that year. Looking back, I believe it made me a better person. However, I told myself that I would never live there alone again.
So my search for a new dorm or boarding house began. It was not hard looking for I heard my classmate Karen found a new one. I asked her if there were any vacancies. She did not just answer my question, she even accompanied me there so I can see it.
Old, big, haunted-looking house. That was my first impression of the dorm. When I met the caretaker, Ate Emma, I even imagined her as a witch. Her hair was long, curly and thick. It was her hair that made me think that she was a witch. Anyway, the dorm is huge. Old school modeled house. The ceiling, the wooden floors, the old chandeliers, and the classy windows designed near the stairs. Our room, however, is nothing like old school. According to Ate Emma, it was an extra room made for the family's drivers.
The room has stairs. Three unequal size of steps to enter the room. The first step is small, the second is big and the third one is bigger. I don't know why they made it like that. There were four single beds aligned with each other. Four closets were built on the side, near the bathroom. Plus, there was a sink. I told Ate Emma to reserved a slot for me. I'm definitely moving.
I moved in June 12, 2006. That's it, the rest is history. If I were to tell my whole life in the dorm, I could probably make a book, novel or a series of stories. There were too many happenings, parties, issues and a lot more to write. But one thing is for sure, I love every part of it. God, I've lived here for many years.
My bed was near the bathroom, then I was in the upper deck, and now I'm near the door. I just realized now that I've been on every side of the room. My roomates, Karen, Lyca, Kath and Clarisse. I could not ask for anyone better. Our room, I may say, is the best room in the dorm. We never had any ungodly wars.
It is the rescue center for our laptops when there are red alert situations. It is the movie room. It is the party room. It is the prayer room. It is the ultimate room. And my roomates are the ultimate roomates. I would never forget Bagyong Milenyo and the other rainy seasons when our room is most likely affected. The flying cockroaches, where our endless shouts and cries would wake up everyone. The little rats, when they would always hang out in the trash, and under the beds. The free wifi, where our room has the best signal.
Why am I writing this? Because I'm leaving. It is so happening. Myself can't believe it. God, I grew up here. I turned 18, 19 and 20 here. Even if I would just move nearby, as you guys said, it would still be different. I can feel that it is hard for everybody. Especially to me. Not seeing Ate Emma everyday, her exceptional laughs, jokes, and stories, I would definitely miss. I love Ate Emma. She is the life of the dorm. And the dorm would never be "The Dorm" without her. She makes everything for us easy and fun.
Nevertheless, I think that moving out is taking a little step further. I will move in a studio-type apartment with my younger brother. He needs me now and who can say no to family? When Clarisse asked me not to leave because it was sudden and we are all not ready, I asked her, when are we going to get ready? I guess we will never get ready. We loved this place so much that even if we are prepared, it would still be hard to go.
I would never be that far though. I would always have the luxury to visit everyday, sleepovers, and all that stuff. I thank God for the dorm, "The Dorm." It has no name so we call it the dorm, the 981 dorm.
*I wrote this three days before I officially moved out. Now, I am officially out. And I miss it so much.*